Christmas Kadatootz!

Merry Christmas Minna-san!!!

Last night, Kadatootz had their Christmas party...

We had a great time...Sad thing some didn't come... for some reason we don't know...

anyways, our food was a potlock... Our spaghetti was lost though... So we have to buy Pansit Malabon instead...

People sang a lot... laughed so hard.. joked around... screamed a lot...

Japan Japan Japan!!!

I applied in a program of NYC... An exchange student program... Destination: Japan...

Sugoi...

It was a rush application demo, I still wish I'd be accepted... It's a reaL hope... They will call me by January to inform me if ever I will be accepted...

I really like to go to Japan... Not only for some leisurely trip but to also experience how to live there. I'm really amazed on how Japanese keeps their country like a sakura tree.. Always blooming.. and I'm hoping that Philippines will be like that too..

I wanna be someone who could change my country from being a third world trash into a better living place... So i hope I will be accepted...

Pilipino Ka Ba?

Kahit anu ka pa...

Diyos ng Kaguwapuhan...

Diyosa ng Kagandahan...

Mayaman...

Mahirap...

Ang tunay na Pilipino,

anumang estado,

marunong pa ring humalik sa lupa!

Jeeeeeeez! Walang kang kwenta!

It's so annoying to know that some people are so dumbed. duhhhh...
Not because I sometimes act like a total biatch and flirt with people does mean that I don't have the rights to stay a virgo... jerk!

I hate this dream...

I had another dream...
This one may not be the same nightmare i usually used to have with all the ghost and the creepy things but still, for me, It's still a nightmare...

Coz the story is about my Aji-niisan leaving me without even saying goodbye...
We were in some house. Staying there for a vacation. Here in the Philippines of course. After some time of hanging out together, the sad day arrived... and it's like, he could have stayed longer here but he chose to go back. He ignored my plead to stay muna kahit for a week more lang. And totally ignored me for that whole day. We didn't talk. I didn't eat. We acted like total strangers to each other for the first time after all the days we have spent together. Then when they were about to go, I was in my room, he was on the drive way and we just looked at each other. Both with sad eyes. And I cried. Then they were gone. I thought he really didn't care. But when I cleaned the room he used at home, I saw a letter with his name and my name on it. He wrote a letter for me apologizing for not staying. But, that's just it... So sad... Parang ngaun lang... Walang communication... =(

Jojo-kun is scary...

How did he became a scary person to Mopy-chan? Here's an I-don't-know if it's a bit or long explanation.. pero.. share ko pa rin...
Hindi ko pa siya 100% na kilala kaya ang masasabi ko lang ay ang mga naaayon sa naobserbahan ko sa kanya sa mga times na magkasama kami at magkausap kami... So more or less ay baka mali din kung anu ang masasabi ko.. anyways, this is only according to my own observations and opinions...

Jojo-kun is a super bright kid, no, guy.

Handsome? check.
Smart? check. super.
Height? check. good.
Humor? check.
Coolness? check.
Leadership abilities? check.
Arts of Music? check. present.
Arts of Drawing? not yet decided.
Arts of Writing? check.
Arts of Speech? check.
Arts of Dancing? check.
Friendly? check. grabeh!
Hardheaded? check. medyo.
Kind? check.
Mabait? check.
Maasahan? check.
atbp.

He's one hell of a scary demigod din... Madaling uminit ulo nya kapag makukulit at matitigas ang ulo ng mga kasama nya. Like a real leader, magagalit sya. Kung maliit ka at babae, bubuhatin ka nya at ipapasok sa classroom na parang sako ng bigas. Kung lalaki naman, sa leeg nya hahawakan tapos itutulak sa classroom. No sweat. He can shut the mouths of the talkatives like me. (kaya nga kahit makulit ako, takot ako dyan ehh... hahaha)

Pero mabait sya. Freakish pero totoo. (ows?) Inis ako sa kanya nuon kasi maingay sya kahit I can't understand what the hell was he talking about. Best nya si Ema. Si Philip na 2nd crush ko ay katabi ni Unida sa harap. Tapos si Roselaine sa harap ko. si Jojo-kun, sa likod ko lng sya nakaupo since tallest sya. He was the first one to greet me Happy Birthday nung first time kong magbirthday sa Tagudin after so many years of living in Manila. June 18, 2001. Grade 4 kami. Traditionally, may mini program before classes starts. Prayer, greetings for occasions then presentation. That time, he led the mini program. Everybody greeted me, they sang Happy Birthday. Sihyet na malagkit, umiyak pako nun. haha. After that, we sang There was a Tree then he sang Only Hope. That was the first time I heard him sing alone. Kakkoi. (cooL) and my first time to also hear that song. Sa whole grade 4 days namin, he kept on talking to me. Nung una, smile nalang ako. Hindi ko maintindihan ehh... haha.. tapos ayun, nakaintindi na ako ng Ilokano.. but, sya naman nagtatagalog na. hihi... Baliw at kalog... Stupid lang ako nuon kasi stupida ako.. haha.. Chinese garter. Girls vs. Boys. Silang dalawa ni Ema with the girls ang nakaranasan ko ng embarrassing moment. Buti nlng maginoo. They kept it to themselves. hahaha... Salamat nga pala duon... nyahaha

Grade 5. Si Jojo ay matulungin, madamot, maalalahanin, laging walang ballpen, flirt, maestro sa multiplication table at ayaw ng egg sandwich. He comforted me nung nabasa ako ng tubig sa may poso because of those damned boys na classmates naming naghaharutan sa oras ng pagdidilig. Hindi sya namimigay pag may kinakain sya (except kendi) pero mahilig sya manghingi.(ok lng, gwapo naman sya nuon at nakakatuwa tlga sya) Nainis sya sa akin coz ayaw ko makinig nung nagdictate sya ng sagot sa 9x6...hahaha (naggraduate ako ng elemetary na hindi kabisado ang multiplication table) Ayaw nya ng Egg sandwich kasi may mayonnaise daw.

Grade 6. Si Jojo ay snob, laging wala sa klase kasi narereview sa labas, nasa canteen, kasali sa marching band, nakakatakot, mahilig manggulo samin para magpaturo ng Atin Cu Pung Singsing, had another embarassing moment, nagpapaimpress kay miss newbie and of course, (siyhet na malagkit!sarap tuktukan) icompare ba naman hair ko sa hair ni Alora. tsk tsk. Nakakatakot sya coz he scolded Roselaine, Maritess and ako when we bumped into each other from different directions while running trying to escape from someone... pero syempre inasikaso muna nya ung mga sugat namin... haha..

Yan ay ilan lang sa mga moments ko na sya ang bida. Base dyan ang personality na kaya kog ibigay sa katauhan nya...

Jojo-kun, for me, is the kind of person who will protect his love ones kahit pa buhay nya kapalit. He wants his woman to be independent and oh-so lady-like and yet, strong and smart inside, tsaka may good sense of humor. But, he's one hell of a possessive man. He could be a total flirt and jerk sometimes, could easily get attracted to other women. (normal yan sa lalaki kaya exception. hahaha) Pero, madali ring maturn-off. Still, he's a sweet and jolly guy. Lovable. At pag nagmahal, as in totoo talaga. He value his family so much and I know that in the future, kapag may sarili na syang family, his family would be the center of his life.

Kahit loko loko syang kausap ngaun at kung anu anong ang sinasabi, malaki pa rin respeto ko sa kanya. At kahit pa ang mga usapan namin now ay ughmmmm.. basta... I know that he also respects me for who and what I am in reality kahit minsan, almost puro my double meaning na ung sinasabi namin at nakikisabay naman ako... haha... Kasi Jojo-kun knows how to handle his stupidity and jerkiness. Hindi man halata sa kanya, rerespetuhin ka nya basta wag mo syang gagaguhin...

I am not plastic!

Akala mo lng hindi ako nakikinig... pero not looking at you when you're talking doesn't mean that Mopy-chan is not listening at all... if you do not know how I handle things, then please, don't judge me just according to someone else's point of view, my actions and my physical appearance... at hindi porket iba ang personality ko sa ibang grupo at iba din sa iyo, ibig sabihin na nuon ay plastic akong tao... I may act like a total bitch there, kid here, nerd to others, shy to some and i-don't-care-sa -paligid ko when i am with you.. pero hindi ibig sabihin non wala talaga akong pakialam sau...=(

Cheating

'...that rather than looking to change how students behave, educators should instead look into themselves and find out if they are the ones contributing to the problem.
“...cheating can be curbed, because I honestly think that students cheat if they feel that it’s impossible. And impossibility is a result of demanding too much output when you haven’t even put much in to begin with. If you’re a good educator, students won’t feel the need to cheat.”' (Trick or cheat By RONALD S. LIM: November 12, 2009)

I agree with her.. If only teachers could make the subject fun even if the lesson itself is boring... and if they can teach us in a not stiff way and brightly... then students wouldn't even dare cheating.

I can't believe it...

For so many years that he's been my friend and my past crush, i've already met too many people and guys that eventually became my crush too.. but how come he's the only who could make me blush by sudden compliments?
yes, there are people that give compliments on how I look, how i dress, how i bring myself up, and how i interact with people... i only smile.. but with him, i really blush! jeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeez.... my present crush/es, they give me compliments but they really can't even make my face red.... ughhhhhhh!!! Buzama!!!

Hey Say JUMP! Rocks!!!

Right now, I got pretty addicted to a Jpop group.. The Hey Say JUMP...



For the story...
The Hey Say 7 temporary group was first formed.


Composed of Yuya Takaki, Daiki Arioka, Ryosuke Yamada, Yuto Nakajima, and Yuri Chinen.

Their songs are...
* Fatalism
* The ONE
* Hey Say
* Bon Bon
* I Wo Kure

But then, since it was just temporary, here's the real score now.

The Hey Say BEST...


They are Hikaru Yaotome, Yuya Takaki, Kota Yabu, Kei Inoo, and Daiki Arioka.
With the songs, here...
* ス・リ・ル (Thrill)
* STYLE
* (Spicy)
* FLY
* Bump Up
* Switch<
* School Days

...and this is Hey Say 7, the real ones...

Keito Okamoto, Yuri Chinen, Yuto Nakajima, Ryosuke Yamada and Ryutaro Marimoto.

Together with their cute songs... * ワンダーランド・トレイン (Wonderland Train)
* S.O.S
* Brave Story
* Iinjanai
* Salsa Iina Iine
* GET
* Kawaii Kimi no Koto da Mono
* Brain Dance


Kawaii ne... They are from Johnny's Entertainment of Japan...
Hey Say JUMP is a combination of two sub groups, the Hey Say BEST and the Hey Say 7... According to them, they were named Hey Say because they were all born in the Heisei period. That's the current era in Japan as of now.


and their songs as a whole... here...
* Ultra Music Power
* Dreams Come True
* Your Seed
* Mayonaka no Shadow Boy
* Glorious
* Deep night Kimi Omou
* School Kakumei (lyrics by Yabu Kota)
* Star Time
* Too Shy
* Bouken Rider
* Chance to Change
* トビラの向こう (Tobira No Mukou)
* 心・技・体 (Shin Gi Tai)
* My HEAVEN
* 大胆夢敵 (Daitan Muteki)
* 太陽にLOVE MOTION! (Taiyou ni LOVE MOTION!)
* BUMP UP
* HIGHER
* Memories
* 情熱JUMP (Jounetsu JUMP)
* Endless Dream
* Born in The EARTH
* Our Future
* To The Top
* Romeo & Juliet
* Hitomi no Screen


* Wish by Chinen Yuri
* Ookiku nare~ boku by Chinen Yuri
* On The Wind by Chinen Yuri
* Stars In Heaven (With Chinen Yuri and Ryosuke Yamada)
* Ｙｏｕ(裕)＆Ｙｏｕ(侑) (With Chinen and Yuto Nakajima)

* Perfume by Ryosuke Yamada
* Moonlight by Ryosuke Yamada
* Asia No Yoru by Ryosuke Yamada
* Uruwashi No Bad Girl by Yuto Nakajima
* Gentles by Hikaru Yaotome
* Akogare no Egoist by Hikaru Yaotome
* Thousand Light by Hikaru Yaotome
* Honoo - Flame of Love by Hikaru Yaotome
* Egoist by Hikaru Yaotome

* Boku wa tada... by Kota Yabu
* Hoshi no furu toki by Kota Yabu
* Hoshikuzu no beru by Kota Yabu
* Mayonaka no ANSWER by Kota Yabu
* Angel Come To Me by Kota Yabu
* Jewel Star by Kota Yabu
* Asu e (Lyrics written by Yabu) by Kota Yabu
* Arashi no carnival by Kota Yabu

* Rain Dance by Kota Yabu
* My Everything by Kota Yabu
* Ikujinashi〜DREAM BOYS Ver.〜 by Kota Yabu
* Chikai no sora (Lyrics written by Yabu) by Kota Yabu
* Tears and Smile (duet with (Yaotome)Hikaru - song written by Yabu, composition by Hikaru) by Kota Yabu

* Mirai by Kota Yabu
* Break the Ice by Kota Yabu


* Oretachi no Seishun by Takaki Yuya
* Kumi No Ito by Takaki Yuya
* Kumo no Ito(spider's thread) by Takaki Yuya
* Jitabata Junchuo by Takaki Yuya

* Arashi Medley by Hey Say 7
* Utauta-u by Hey Say 7
* Sorafune


hmmmm.. That's pretty much it...
hope i'd meet them in the future... weeeeeeeh







shing shing!!

Teacher's, ARIGATO!!!

Usually, we would say that teachers suck, not good, and annoying. Usually, we would think that teachers only think of themselves, that they don’t care about their students, and they just teach us craps. Wholeheartedly, just this week, I realized that not everything we think about others is right.
Who and what really are these TEACHERS anyway? According to the dictionary, is it someone who shares, teach, or impart knowledge or skill to somebody else. Therefore, teachers are not only those who have taken up the course Education. All of us can be a teacher. No age limits, no strict education standards, no restrictions, as long as you know what to teach, you can be a teacher.
There may really be some scrap teacher, but not all of them. Also, there are options and exemptions on how we classify people. You see, each of us has different point of views, standards and personalities. Other may think that Mr. Einstein is an insane one, but others would think otherwise. He’s a genius. Honestly, my dear people, whether a teacher is good or not depends on you, on us. Students can’t choose their teachers, though they can choose their schools.
Imagine if someone is teaching us something and we don’t get it, we would say the teacher is not good. But other did get it, so, we would say, “Matalino kasi sila.” Then we would start looking for another teacher. A teacher who could teach us great things and we would think that this teacher is better or rather, perfect. I realize how pathetic those people who has this way of thinking. Guilty as charged. Perfection is just a matter of individuality, or a matter of changing how you view things. Whether the learning thing is boring or fun doesn’t always depend on teachers. It also depends on the students. Cause true knowledge will only be acquired by those who really want to learn.
Different kinds of teachers we meet everyday. Teacher Policeman teaches us that jaywalking is bad. Teacher Nurse and Teacher Doctor teach us how to take care of our health. Teacher Mother and Father guide us in our lives. Teacher Fireman teaches us never to play fire. And of course, let’s include Teacher Classmates and Teacher Friends whom we could always ask for help when we have something that we can’t understand in class or somewhere else. We like some, we hate some. Still no matter what kind of teacher you meet in the future, don’t forget what you’ve always learned. They’re the one who taught us how to have pride and confidence, to be humble, disciplined and independent, and they’re the one who had taught us how to stand up when we fall and shakes us up when we’re on our lame selves.
So, with all these things that our teacher had done, have we ever thank them for it? Have we ever tried appreciating them? Have we ever tried apologizing to all the heartaches and the pains we’ve given to them? Have we ever thought that, simple gesture of smile and giving gratitude to them could make them feel like the luckiest teachers in the world? Oh yes, that’s true. Even the grouchiest person in the world could turn into a cool, happy and wonderful person if you know someone appreciates your existence. Most people say I’m just a kid. By the looks, yes, but now that I already realized how pathetic I have been, that only means I am not a kid anymore. I’m now standing at the entrance of adulthood. Guys, now is the time that we wake up from being stubborn, out of control staminas. Now is the time that we learn to say thank you to our teachers.

(I first delivered this as my speech in my english 3 class. I ended it with this.

For the ending, I’d like to take this opportunity to give gratitude to those who became my teachers in my earlier college years. To the villa girls who kept on checking my attendance during PE. Thanks. To my current group, The Gamers, consists of Paps, Brotherhood (Willmar), Momo-chan (Raiza), Mamu Joyce, Nefirtiri (Jarie), Ilatriva (Katrina), Kuya Beybi Davie and Master (Rom). Thanks for the friendship. Kuya Gab, thanks for coaching me at Computer Organization class. To everyone, thanks for being my classmates. And of course, Miss Tibayan, Arigatou-Gozaimashita!

My teacher really liked it. I was so overwhelmed with joy knowing that I have touched the hearts of my audience. Maybe not all my classmates but at least, my teacher did.)

I am grateful to know that i have this gift to do such great touching pen works. This pen work is for all the teachers in the world.

So to all the teachers i have met and I will meet in the future, ARIGATOU-GOZAIMASHITA!!!

Bagyong Ondoy? It can't be...

Metro Manila, Cavite, Pasig, Marikina and Makati were super flooded because of the Typhoon Ondoy that hit us last Saturday, September 26, '09. State of Calamity time. It was hellish. So many people died and houses were destroyed. Our house was not flooded but outside, the water was in waist level (Normal human). In k-7th street, the water was around 15 feet high. Our house became a temporary home for the refugees again.
Everyone from the outside believes that it was really like a super typhoon because of the damages. But logically, I believe that it wasn't. It can't be. That type of rain could never make the whole NCR and some near provinces here full flooded. duhhh.. Sentido comon. Baka people could be really disgusting.
Ok, here's why... the typhoon Ondoy of 2009 was not even half-way stronger than of the typhoon Milenyo of 2006 that hit the Philippines. I can compare it because I have a photographic memory. The storm was still mild as compared to bagyong Milenyo. And to think that it hit NCR with just rains, no winds at all.
On the first six months of the year 2009, we had a very indescribable weather. Rain and shine. It's summer but it's raining. We had typhoons out of season. We had continuous light and heavy rains but it never flooded that much.
So why did it flooded that much? It's because the La Mesa Dam waters were released. In Full open Gates. Pwede naman nilang irelease ung tubig, pero sana naman ung hinay hinay. They know naman na may kasalukuyang bagyo tapos pakakawalan nila ung tubig na 4 gates open. Pwede namang paunti unti kasi hindi naman basta basta magka-crack ung Dam porket puno kasi nagpapakawala naman. duhhh...

anyways, point of view ko lang toh ha....

Someone...

It's not always that you will meet someone who will value your existence more than the way you expected and the way you value him/her. And it's not also everyday that you will have that person to talk to and see. So whatever the circumstances are, you always have to look forward to seeing and talking to that person, and never let go of that special feelings you have, for you will never know... That might be the last time that you will have the chance to have all his/her time and attention just for you. And there will be no more next time.

Fun is good...

In a parking lot...
Parking Lot
(Don't block the drive way)
warning: For cars only


Two friends talking...
Person 1: Anong paborito mong kulay?
Person 2: Wala ehh. Black kasi ang paborito ko.
(nyahahhaha)


In a classroom... teacher telling the students their assignment.
Teacher: Class, magdala kayo ng art paper. kahit anong kulay basta pink.
(nyahahaha)


In a classroom...
Teacher: Bring out 1/4 piece of pad paper.
Pupils: 1/2 ma'am?
(nyahahahaha)


Two friends talking...
Person 1: Malakas ka ba magtrip, 'tol?
Person 2: Ako? Hindi nga ehh.. I'm not KSP kasi. Tara sa buwan! Sagot ko.


In office... a phone conversation...
Caller: May I speak with your boss please?
Assistant: Oh I'm sorry but mu boss already left for his out-of-the-country appointment that will last for a week last last night. Would you like to wait, sir?
(Nyahahahahahaha)

CINDYRELLA – THE NEW VERSION

CINDYRELLA – THE NEW VERSION

A long long time ago, in a far far far away subdivision with a kingdom outside our galaxy, a girl named Cindyrella was locked up in a slimy cellar where rats and cockroaches began to nibble her feet.

Cindyrella cried, “Help! Let me out!”

Then there came out a magic Dwelf and said, “My dear, are you alright?”

Cindyrella replied, “All right? Can’t you see I feel as rotten as can be!?!? Get me to the ball held at the kingdom! My stepsisters have gone and I am jealous! I want a dress, a coach, earrings, diamond brooch, silver slippers and a nylon panty hose! Not tomorrow, not yesterday, but NOW!”

Therefore, the magic Dwelf gave her colorful dagger-wand a mighty flick and in no time at all, Cindyrella was at the ball! Dancing with the handsome Prince who have fallen in love at first sight with her. All was going on so well until the clock struck for midnight.

“Heck! I’ve got to run to run to save my neck!” Cindyrella shouted.

She run away as fast as she could but the Prince grabbed her dress to hold her back. The dress was ripped from head to toe and she ran out with her underwear and lost one slipper on the grand stairs.

“The girl whom this slipper fits shall be my bride!” said the Prince. The next morning, the Prince went on looking for the owner of the slipper. The shoe was long, very wide and smelled a wee bit icky. There came to Cindyrella’s house, Cindyrella’s ugly stepsisters tried the slipper. The eldest, Andalucia, said it was hers but the Prince denied and decided to go home.

Andalucia stopped him and said, “You promised to marry me so you stand on it!”

The Prince got angry. He pulled his sword out and in one swoosh sway, Andalucia’s head went down to her feet. The second stepsister, Grizziella, feeling delighted, tried to get the slipper to try it on but the Prince would not give it to her.

“Hey! Marry! I am the true owner of that filthy slipper, you know. So marry me!” Grizziella said.

The Price smiled at her and another swoosh sway of his sword, Grazziella’s head rolled down to her feet and headed to the kitchen.

“She’s prettier without her head.” The Prince said.

At the kitchen, Cindyrella was busy cooking ger food when she saw Graziella’s head.

“Oh! My dear sister’s head was chopped! Hmmmm, on the other hand, I think this will make my food more delicious.” So she picked up the head and put it on the food she’s cooking. Tasted it and said, “Hmmmm.. Delicioso!”

She went out in the kitchen and saw the Prince.

“What’s all the racket?” asked the puzzled Cindyrella.

“Mind your own business. Want me to chop your head too?” the Prince answered.

“Oh my! My Prince has the hobby of chopping heads! Magic Dwelf, magic Dwelf, please hear my plead. Please let me marry a honey jam maker instead of a Prince. Let me marry a good man instead of one chopping heads. Please let me have someone who would love me for who I am, than having someone who is handsome but does not know how to value life. Please turn me back into my old good-hearted self.” cried Cindyrella.

The Dwelf came out of sight again upon hearing Cindyrella’s call. She waved her dagger-wand and Cindyrella can be seen neither in a brick house nor in a palace. She’s living in a wooden house eating a yummy bread with sweet honey instead of a soup with a human head. And of course, instead of a Prince, she was married to a good, honest honey jam maker.

And they lived happily ever after…

Lesson learned:

· Be contented of what you have. Don’t dream for something unbelievable and impossible. Just try if you can change your fate.

· Wait for what is destined to you. Don’t be in a rush. But also remember that you make your own fate.

· Greed will bury even the lucky eventually.

· You can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life.

· Either you control your attitude or it controls you.

· Background and circumstances may have influenced who we are, but we are responsible for who we become.

· It’s not what you have in your life, but whom you have in your life that counts.

· The most important things in life aren't things.

· No matter where life takes you, don't forget where you came from.

Childhood...

I was on my way to Cubao to buy something at the mall when we passed by the school where I attended my grade 2 and 3.. I remembered the childhood times of my life.. My crushes.. my friends.. my mischievous deeds.. my experiences.. the lessons i learned..

I remember having my 3rd crush at ERSES.. hihi...
I remember joining a gang...the girls gang...
I remember fighting with my gang versus the boys...
I remember losing my bag because i was in a battle...
I remember watching my classmates playing Spirit of the Coin...
I remember being the keeper of the ghostly coin...
I remember feeling hurt because my 2nd best friend of mine left me...
I remember feeling so embarrassed because of an unfortunate event...(my fortunate event ba?=>)
I remember being so masunurin and malinis...
I remember getting lessons from my crush... ahem ahem...

I wish i could visit that schooL some time...
stories about it, on my next posts... ciao!

One heck of a HeLL...

I stared at the man beside me. He was looking at me.. he's smiling.. a friendly smile..

Then another scenery popped out.. a girl trying to escape from that bloody room she was chained at. Beside her was a door.. and another girl at her feet.. the first girl was chained hanging flat to the wall. the latter girl was just 2 feet away from her.. laying in the grounds filled with blood.. a hooded man was raping her.. the 2 girls were trying to escape from that terror happening to them but they can't.. too weak.. too down.. no one from the outside world seems to know there were some murdering that happened and is happening in that place. the chained girl started banging the wall with her body while shouting for help..

The scenery was changed.. i was at home with my family.. we were at the garage cooking and grilling food for dinner. A perfect family.. so happy.. smiling faces surrounding me.. we were joking at each other.. the kids running around freely.. then we decided to sleep coz it's late already.. I don't know why but we slept there beside the gate.

changed... the smiling man scene.. i can't remember how but i found out that he was the hooded rapist-killer i saw at the bloody room.. then he began chasing me.. like the chasing game that happened in the movie Leprechaun.. the bloody room with the chained girl popped out again.. bloods on her and a shadow of a woman getting killed with a knife.. the scene popped out about 2 times more.. different women being killed..

then i saw myself in the scene.. my face looked so dull like i was some sort of a vampire.. like i don't have blood.. so white.. so scared.. i was trying to open the gate coz Aji-niisan run out for something and i was trying to call him back..i had opened the gate successfully.. i was kneeling on the ground and my head was out looking for my Aji-niisan.. then i heard someone laughing devilishly.. I looked up.. there i saw him..

the killer man... he tried to kill my family so he could kill me... i have realized that, if he gets me, i will be the next victim in that bloody room.. this can't be my end.!

i fought back.. My Aji-niisan was there trying to figure out what to do but he seems to lose his mind for the sudden happening.. My family was deep asleep.. they're not dead. I have defended them. they were still sleeping soundly not knowing and can't feel that I was in danger.. I run away.. i tried.. but he caught my hair and pulled me back.. I tried hitting him with my fighting skills.. he got frustrated.. he decided to just kill me so his mission of keeping me silent will be finished.. and that was it.. I felt the tip of the cold steel touch my skin.. I felt the red liquor flow down in my belly's skin.. I felt the pain and me catching my breath..

he stabbed be with a kitchen knife...

I saw him, my dearest brother, Azul (Aji-niisan), running away like nothing happened. Like he checked us if we were sleeping soundly and he saw that we're ok and run away again for something..

I opened my eyes feeling so ughmmm, devastated..? No.. frightened is the correct word.. I was catching my breath and tears were falling down my cheeks..I was facing left.. I rolled to the right... That was when i realized..

It felt like it was true but...

It was all just one of those nightmares...

But I know.. like the others.. this would hunt me for a month or so before i could get over it..

I don't know what to do.. I don't have anyone to listen to me.. I don't have someone who could comfort me when I'm scared.. It seems like they all think i can take care of myself.. but i am scared.. and can't tell it to anyone.. i can't be a sissy.. therefore, I have to deal with it...=(

My Name

I was just wondering what is the meaning of my name... so i searched for it.. according to the site babynamesworld.parentsconnect.com , if it is base in Norse, it means Eternal Ruler. CooL. and if it's from Germanic, it means Honorable Ruler. for hmmmm. That's the ERIKA alone. What about ASHLIN? From Gaelic, it means Dream. Pretty cooL meaning huh.. haha

For a simpler meaning, FOREVER, ALONE or RULER.

Organizer - Leadership skills, planner, strong, high achiever and sound judgment. (www.meaning-of-baby-girl-names.org.uk)

Hmmmm... Horoscope said...

LIBRA - The Asshole

(9/23-10/22)
Caring and kind. Smart. Center of attention. High appeal. Has the last word. Good to find, hard to keep. Fun to be around. Extremely weird but in a good way.


SCORPIO - The SUPERIOR One
(10/23-11/21)
Loves being in long relationships. Likes to give a good fight for what they want. Extremely outgoing. Loves to help people in times of need. Best kisser. Good personality. Stubborn. Amazing in bed.


SAGITTARIUS-THE SUPERIOR SEXUAL PARTNER
(11/22-12/21)
Loves to bust. Nice. Sassy. Intelligent. EXTREMELY SEXY. Predict future. Loves being in long relationships. Has lots of friends. Great talker. Always gets what he or she wants. Also not a fighter, but if they have to, they will also knock the lights out of you if it comes down to it..Cool. .


CAPRICORN - The One that Waits
(12/22-1/19)
Dominant in relationships. Someone loves them right now. Always Wants the last word. Caring. Smart.Sweet. Loud. Loyal. Beautiful. Goofy. Easy to talk to.


AQUARIUS - The one every girl or boy needs
(1/20-2/18)
Great talker. Attractive and passionate. Laid back. Knows how to Have fun. Is really good at almost anything. Great kisser. Unpredictable. Outgoing.


PISCES - The perfect one
(2/19-3/20)
EXTREMELY adorable. Intelligent. Loves to joke. Very Good sense of humor. Energetic. Predict future. AWESOME KISSER.. Always get what they want. Very Attractive. Easy going. RARE Finding.


ARIES- The Irresistible One
(3/21-4/19)
Nice. Love is one of a kind. Great listeners. Very Good in bed... Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out. Trustworthy. Always happy. Loud. Talkative. Outgoing. VERY FORGIVING. Loves to make out.


TAURUS - The Aggressive One
(4/20-5/20)
Very high appeal. Love is one of a kind. Very romantic. Most caring person you will ever meet! Entirely creative. Extremely random and proud of it. Freak. Spontaneous.


GEMINI - The Gorgeous one
(5/21-6/21)
Outgoing. Lovable. Spontaneous. Not one to mess with. Funny. Excellent kisser EXTREMELY adorable. dual personalities. Loves relationships,
Addictive. Loud.


CANCER - The Coolest person u'll ever meet.
(6/22-7/22)
Trustworthy. Attractive. Great kisser. One of a kind. Loves being In long-term relationships. Extremely energetic. Unpredictable.


LEO - The Sexy One
(7/23-8/22)
Very talkative. Nice to everyone they meet. Their Love is one of a kind. Silly, Fun and SEXY. Have own unique appeal. Irresistible.


VIRGO- The Promiscuous One
(8/23-9/22)
Spontaneous. High appeal. Rare to find. Great when found. Loves being in long relationships. So much love to give. Not one to mess with.

Boy-Girl facts (3)...

Guys said...

"We don't care if you talk to other guys.

We don't care if you're friends with other guys.

But when you're sitting next to us, and some random guy walks into the room and you jump up and tackle him, without even introducing us, yeah, it pisses us off. It doesn't help if you sit there and talk to him for ten minutes without even acknowledging the fact that we're still there.

We don't care if a guy calls/OR TEXTS. Nothing is that important at 2 a.m. beside us.

When we tell you you're pretty/ beautiful/ gorgeous/ cute/ stunning, we freaking mean it. Don't tell us we're wrong. We'll stop trying to convince you. The sexiest thing about a girl is confidence

Yeah, you can quote me.

Don't be mad when we hold the door open. Take advantage of the mood we're in.

Let us pay for you! Dont "feel bad". We enjoy doing it. It's expected. Smile and say "thank you.

Kiss us when no one's watching. If you kiss us when you know somebody's looking, we'll be more impressed.

You don't have to get dressed up for us. If we're going out with you in the first place, you don't have to feel the need to wear the shortest skirt you have or put on every kind of makeup you own. We like you for who you are and not for who you are not. Honestly, i think a girl looks more beautiful when she's just in her pj's.
or my shirt and boxers, not all dolled up.

Don't take everything we say seriously. Sarcasm is a beautiful thing. See the beauty in it.

Don't get angry easily.

Don't talk about how hott Chris Brown, Brad Pitt, or Jesse McCartney is in front of us. It's boring, and we don't care. You have girlfriends for that.

Whatever happened to the word handsome??? beautiful???

I'd be utterly stunned by a girl who greeted me with "Hey handsome!" instead of "Hey baby/ stud/ cutie/ sexy" or whatever else you can think of. On the other hand I'm not saying i wouldn't like it ether (;.. "







Now we know girls...
Still... Don't forget.. If you aren't being treated right by a guy, don't wait for him to change. Ditch his sorry ass, disgrace to the male population and find someone who will treat you with utter respect

Someone who will honor your morals.

Someone who will make you smile when you're at your lowest.

Someone who will care for you even when you make mistakes.

Someone who will love you, no matter how bad you make them feel.

Someone who will stop what they're doing just to look you in the eyes....and say "i love you" ..and ACTUALLY MEAN IT.

ok?=) Ja!

Boy-Girl facts (2)...

When a guy calls you,
he wants to be with you...

When a guy is quiet,
He's listening to you...

When a guy is not arguing,
He realizes he's wrong...

When a guy says, "I'm fine",
after a few minutes, he means it...

When a guy stares at you,
he wishes you would care about him and wonders if you do too..

When you're laying your head on a guy's chest,
he has the world..

When a guy calls/texts/comments/messages you everyday,
he is in love...

When a (good) guy tells you he loves you,
he mean it...

When a guy says he can't live without you,
he's with you till you're done...

When a guy says, "I miss you,"
he misses you more than you could have ever missed him or anything else...






When a girl is mean to you after a break-up,
she wants you back but she is too scared she'll get hurt and knows you're gone forever!

When you catch a girl glancing at you,
she wants you to look back and smile...

When a girl bumps into your arm while walking with you, she wants you to hold her hand...

When she wants a hug,
she will just stand there...

When u break a girls heart,
she still feels it when you run into each other 3 years later...

When a girl is quiet,
millions of things are running in her mind...

When a girl is not arguing,
she is thinking deeply...

When a girl looks at you with eyes full of questions,
she is wondering how long you will be around...

When a girl answers, "I'm fine,",
after a few seconds, she is not fine at all...

When a girl stares at you,
she is wondering why you are playing games...

When a girl lays her head on your chest,
she is wishing for you to be hers forever...

When a girl says she can't live without you,
she has made up her mind that you are her future...

When a girl says, "I miss you,"
no one in this world can miss you more than that...




(Readers... Agree or disagree? hahaha)

Thanks...for changing the World...

Republic of the Philippines Former President Corazon Aquino, ang Ina ng Demokratiko.

Tita Cory, thanks for being an inspiration to every Filipinos living here in this world. Thank you for staying brave in spite the challenges you've faced upon serving us as our President. Thanks for being a good example and making us realize that war doesn't always have to shred blood all over the corners of the world. Thanks for making us know that unity and faith in God is the best weapon in order to survive in this life's challenges and have peace...

May you now rest in peace and enjoy your life in the Spirit World with your good husband who also brought a good history to us, Filipinos. Please still guide us and make us remember the things you have done to us. We, the Filipino people that you left here living in this Earth, will surely always keep you in our hearts and we will never forget you. Your goodness and greatness. We will continue to fight for the rights of every Filipinos like what you did for us...

Sino nga ba si Tita Cory?

Maria Corazon "Cory" Sumulong Cojuangco Aquino11th President of the Philippines, serving from 1986 to 1992. She was the first female president of the Philippines and was Asia's first female president. (January 25, 1933 – August 1, 2009) was the A self-proclaimed "plain housewife", Aquino was married to Senator Benigno Aquino, Jr. (1932–1983), a leading figure in the political opposition against the autocratic rule of President Ferdinand Marcos. After her husband was assassinated upon his return from exile in the United States1986 snap presidential elections. After Marcos was proclaimed the winner despite widespread reports of electoral fraud, Aquino was installed as President by the peaceful 1986 People Power Revolution. on August 21, 1983, Aquino, who had no prior political experience, became a focal point and unifying force of the opposition against Marcos. She was drafted to run against Marcos in the Aquino's presidency saw the restoration of democratic institutions in the Philippines, through the enactment of a new Constitution which limited the powers of the presidency, restored the bicameral Congress, and renewed emphasis on civil liberties. Her administration was likewise hampered by several military coup attempts by disaffected members of the Philippine military which derailed a return to full political stability and economic development.

(wikipedia.com)

On August 1, 2009, she died from colon cancer.

Siya pa lamang ang taong namatay kung saan halos lahat ng tao sa Pilipinas ay nagkaisa at nagdasal para sa kanya. Sa kanyang pagsakabilang buhay, tila naulit ang kasaysayan ng Pilipinas sa panahong namatay ang kanyang yumaong esposo ng siyang lalong nagpasiklab ng digmaan laban sa presidente na si Marcos nuon. Nang ilibing si Ninoy Aquino, buong bansa din ang nagkaisa, sumubaybay at nakipaglibing sa pamilyang Aquino. Sa panahong iyon, galit ang pawang nararamdaman ng mga tao para kay Marcos at pagdadalamhati kay Ninoy Aquino. Matapos iyon ay naganap ang makasaysayang People Power or Edsa Revolution. At ngayon nga ay tila naulit ang pangyayaring yaon, lamang ay kapayapaan at pagdadalamhati ang nararamdaman ng mga tao para kay Cory Aquino.

Madaming naitulong sa taong bayan ang matatag na babaing ito. Kung kayat talagang minahal siya ng mga tao at naging huwarang pinuno rin sa ibang bansa. Kaya naman...

Maraming maraming Salamat Tita Cory. Mabuhay ka!

Boy-Girl facts (1)...

To every guy that said, "Sex can wait"
To every guy that said, "You're beautiful."
To every guy that was never too busy to drive across town to see her.
To every guy that gives her flowers and a card when she is sick or down.
To every guy who has given her flowers just because thats how he rolls.
To every guy that said he would die for her.
To every guy that really would.
To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
To every guy that cried in front of her. ....
To every guy that she cried in front of...
To every guy that holds hands with her.
To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
To every guy that hugs her when she's sad.
To every guy that hugs her for no reason at all.
To every guy who would give their jacket up for her.
To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to see her for ten minutes.....
To every guy that would give his seat up...
To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what.
To every guy who told his secrets to her.
To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breath.
To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
To every guy that believed in her dreams.
To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
To every guy that walked her to her car and opened the door.
To every guy that gave his heart.
To every guy who prays that she is happy even if you are not with her.


Not many girls appreciate nice guys anymore...
And because of this, there are not many left out there...


So.. to all the girls that would have the chance to read this... please appreciate every single things about guys... start appreciating now... and to all the guys... please prove to us that you guys are like this...

A poem

(i got this somewhere...)

FRIEND

friend means no asking...
friend means no reasoning...
friend means just believing
and
friend is that who will never believe in the last three letters of
FRIEND...

What personality???

I took a personality test and i don't know what should be my reaction about it... well, sabi dun..

You don't judge others' faults but rather have compassion on them and what they are going through. Your first instinct when you see someone in need is to comfort them and show them how much you care. You are gracious, and love flows out of you naturally. Even in situations where most people would back away, you are right there for people with your arms wide open. You feel empathy for those who suffer, and this might be because of your kind nature or maybe even because you can relate; whatever the reason, you help heal wounds and are a shoulder to cry on. You are very helpful to those around you-- be it your friends, your family, or even a neighbor in need. You have a deep sense of warmth and nurturing for those you care about. You are well-rounded and tough because you have to be. You aren't a "diva" but rather a humble person with admirable character. You are good at striking up a conversation, and you listen attentively. People find you cute and easy to connect with. Your smile has a hint of flirtation in it which makes you look fun and attractive. When you flash a smile, people know that it signals that start of a potentially great conversation. You are sweet with a sour side to you. You are fun and energetic. You love being outdoors and spending time with quality friends and family. You've got 95% popularity at the scale of 100. You are a notorious sexy babe who is 75% boyish and 25% girlish. You are strong and determined and have what it takes to get through life's storms. You are a great leader and strong-willed person, and take challenges as a way to better yourself. By being able to turn a little into a lot, you know how to make life enjoyable even if it's just through the little things. You are always on the move – probing, testing, tasting and exploring the most interesting things life has to offer. You are not afraid to take chances and are attracted to risk and danger. You are determined, active and love danger. You are restless and life is never dull around you. You are truly independent a real adventurer. You never get scared of strangers. Even though you may look creepy you always fascinate people. You think things through. You don't run off into a situation with your emotions ruling you. Though as a leader you are powerful and protective... you try hard not to be all work and no play! Love and affection are important to you, you can be warm and giving and then cool and detached. You are a clairvoyant. You have huge aspirations in life and want the most that life has to offer. You are the best kind of dreamer because you know how to dream big! You believe that everyone should be equal. You love arts. You are a person with some talent and don't really depend on other people, you know the idea of life pretty clearly, but still you are trying to be happy and notice only the best points in life, and learning life is not really hard for you. You are loud and proud of it. You don't give a damn if the people on the street give you strange looks for laughing out loud or having a spring in your step. If life gives you lemons, you shrug and make sweet lemonade for everyone. Your friends don't always get your no boundaries sense of humor and outlook on life, but they understand you and love you for it. You are the type of girl that a guy MIGHT like. You like to keep focused on other things though but guys like it when you try and catch their eye. Even though you are shy when it comes to flirting, you love talking on the phone with your friends talking about that incredibly cute guy you saw. You are a respectful person but shy away from sexual activity and relationships. You have no desire to have a companion at the moment and are happy alone. When asked out on a date you always respond with no. Your Independence is most important right now even if it is alone. You enjoy having privacy and do not want anyone you have to answer to. You completely block out feelings that might lead to companionship. Still, you are secretly looking for Mr. Right.

So that's the result of the test i took. I don't know if I'm going to believe it or laugh at it. hahaha. Silly me. shing shing!!

Life is not that cruel!

Life must go on! Life is cruel but must go on so whatever mistakes and life aches we experiences, we must never regret it coz it gives us lot of life lessons in exchange. And also, may kaligayahan na nakalaan para sa atin.=) Even if we hate the person we thought we really hate, in the end we'll realize he's one of the best friends we could have.

A qoute...

“I’m not normal. I tried to pretend that I was and I just hurt everyone; my mom, my dad. I ruined everything because of what I am. I hated it. But you – when I met you I finally felt like I was part of something.”

-Claire Bennet

TO ALL THE KIDS WHO WERE BORN IN THE1950’s, 60′ s, 70’s and early 80’s !!

Babies survived being born to mothers who did not have an OB-Gyne and drank San Miguel Beer while they carried us.

While pregnant, they took cold or cough medicine, ate isaw, and didn’t worry about diabetes.

Then after all that trauma, our baby cribs were made of hard wood covered with lead-based paints, pati na yung walker natin, matigas na kahoy din at wala pang gulong.

We had no soft cushy cribs that play music, no disposable diapers (lampin lang), and when we rode our bikes, we had no helmets, no kneepads , sometimes wala pang preno yung bisikleta.

As children, we would ride in hot un-airconditioned buses with wooden seats (yung JD bus na pula), or cars with no airconditioning & no seat belts (ngayon lahat may aircon na)

Riding on the back of a carabao on a breezy summer day was considered a treat. (ngayon hindi na nakakakita ng kalabaw ang mga bata)

We drank water from the garden hose and NOT from a bottle purchased from 711 ( minsan straight from the faucet or poso)

We shared one soft drink bottle with four of our friends, and NO ONE actually died from this. Or contacted hepatitis.

We ate rice with star margarine, drank raw eggs straight from the shell, and drank sofdrinks with real sugar in it (hindi diet coke), but we weren’t sick or overweight kasi nga……

WE WERE ALWAYS OUTSIDE PLAYING!!

We would leave home in the morning and play all day, and get back when the streetlights came on. Sarap mag patintero, tumbang preso , habulan at taguan.

No one was able to reach us all day ( di uso ang cellphone , walang beepers ) . And yes, we were O.K.

We would spend hours building our wooden trolleys (yung bearing ang gulong) or plywood slides out of scraps and then ride down the street , only to find out we forgot the brakes! After hitting the sidewalk or falling into a canal (seweage channel) a few times, we learned to solve the problem ourselves with our bare & dirty hands .

We did not have Playstations, Nintendo’s, X-boxes, no video games at all, no 100 channels on cable, no DVD movies, no surround stereo, no IPOD’s, no cell phones, no computers, no Internet, no chat rooms, and no Friendsters. …… …WE HAD REAL FRIENDS and we went outside to actually talk and play with them!

We fell out of trees, got cut, broke bones and teeth and there were no stupid lawsuits from these accidents. The only rubbing we get is from our friends with the words..masakit ba ? pero pag galit yung kalaro mo,,,,ang sasabihin sa iyo..beh buti nga !

We played marbles (jolens) in the dirt , washed our hands just a little and ate dirty ice cream & fish balls. we were not afraid of getting germs in our stomachs.

We had to live with homemade guns ” gawa sa kahoy, tinali ng rubberband , sumpit , tirador at kung ano ano pa na puedeng makasakitan. .pero masaya pa rin ang lahat.

We made up games with sticks ( syatong ), and cans ( tumbang preso )and although we were told they were dangerous, wala naman tayong binulag o napatay.paminsan minsan may nabubukulan lang.

We walked, rode bikes, or took tricycles to a friend’s house and knocked on the door or rang the bell, or just yelled for them to jump out the window!

Mini basketball teams had tryouts and not everyone made the team. Those who didn’t pass had to learn to deal with the disappointment. Wala yang mga childhood depression at damaged self esteem ek-ek na yan. Ang pikon, talo.

Ang magulang ay nandoon lang para tignan kung ayos lang ang mga bata, hindi para makialam at makipag-away sa ibang parents.

That generation of ours has produced some of the best risk-takers, problem solvers, creative thinkers and successful professionals ever! They are the CEO’s, Engineers, Doctors and Military Generals of today.

The past 50 years have been an explosion of innovation and new ideas.

We had failure, success, and responsibility. We learned from our mistakes the hard way.

Independence Day

Happy Independence Day people! Today we celebrate the historical "Araw ng Kalayaan" of the Philippines so it's a holiday. If you don't know the history then i'll share a bit about it.

The Philippine Flag was first shown when President Emilio Aguinaldo waved it in front of so many people at Kawit, Cavite as he proclaimed the independence of the Filipinos in 1898. Also, the Lupang Hinirang, composed by Julian Felipe, was first heard and declared officially to be our Philippine National Anthem that day. So, during our Independence Day, so many flags were being hung in the streets and hi-ways and the cars have flags also and the buildings etc etc.. And different Nationalist Organizations organize some cooL festives and programs and people always go and watch it.

I was supposed to go to Fort Bonifacio today for the AKOMISMO concert but i don't have anyone to go with me here. Anyways...if you're not busy guys.. i suggest that you also join this site.. akomismo.org... It's for Filipinos' like us. check this out for more info... http://akomismo.org/main.php?s=whois .... ja! Happy Independence Day!

Me and what i think about life...

So... since this is my first blog... I think I'm gonna write something about myself and what I think about some things...

I'm just a simple person but sometimes, I'm complicated.. That's why i have my own world... Most people would say that I'm in the Manipulator type... well, maybe... But it's their problem anymore, not mine, if they're going or choose to be manipulated by me.. Every person have his or her own FREE AGENCY given by our Heavenly Father... I am not obligating anybody to go or be with me although i am happy because i have somebody.. because you still chose me to be one of your friends... My only concern is, if you want to be with me, follow my rules, bear with me.. coz this is me, this is my world...and i care for people...

Life is just like waves that crushes in the shore then go back in the ocean like a whirlwind tornado..

kapag hindi ka magiging matapang, maiiwan ka sa agos ng buhay...

kung hindi ka observant, mapagsasamantalahan ka ng mas matataas sayo..

if you cant decide things by yourself, you'll never see the real world and you'll never have the chance to survive in the independent time of being...

Totoo, pero mahirap ipaliwanag at intindihin kung makitid ang utak mo at kung sa tingin mo ay wala ka naman mapapala sa pagtuklas sa kailaliman ng buhay. Anyways, yun nga.. I'm not expecting anybody to understand my way of living, but at least, I tried sharing you what I know.